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[iheartyourlurk]

My blood sugar is completely fucked. I had such a bad crash at work today that I ended up on the floor in the break room, shoving nickels and dimes and gum wrappers into a snack machine trying to get something to eat before I passed out. My co-worker found me like that and started feeding me soda like a fucking baby. I was shaking so bad I couldn't even talk straight. It was one of the scariest things I've ever felt in my life. And within 20 minutes of getting some sugar in my system, I was almost completely back to normal. My boss tried to call an ambulance but I told him it was just my hypoglycemia and I'd be fine, plus I don't have insurance for another 2 weeks and there is no way I'm paying that bill. I stayed in a conference room with candy and soda and a blanket for almost an hour before I could even walk back to my desk. The rest of the day was ok and I took calls like normal but I felt so weak and had this weird panicky feeling on and off. I have no clue what triggered this because I was snacking all day. This is the third time in a year that I've had a really bad crash but this one felt different. I honestly convinced myself I was dying at one point and started sobbing into my purse on the floor.
I'm so embarrassed that had to happen at work in front of people. I probably looked like I was on drugs. I don't even want to go to work tomorrow because I'm so scared it's going to happen again.
I really really really can't wait to have insurance so I can get to a damn doctor and find out what is going on in there. I hate feeling out of control like this :(