Weird.
Well what a weird 24 hours it's been for me. Conal showed up last night at my door at around 11pm. He is back from his trip and apparently missed me a lot. We had a bit of a conversation about it but we're still not getting back together. I'm not sure what we are doing actually. I never thought I'd end up in a situation like this. It's weird for me and I'm not sure how to handle it. He was here most of the day and then went over to his parents house with kids for a bit. Then while he was gone he decides that he needs to go to Calgary to roof and do his sub-contracting again. He said he'd be gone for 6 weeks. 6 freakin' weeks. That is a long time for me and especially for the kids. I missed him when he was even gone for this past week. He realized I was sad and said everything would be okay and that he wasn't abandoning me and the kids it was just something he needed to do get ahead. Man he is sooooooo confusing. I have no idea what he wants. So since my mom is still living there until the end of August I think we might go there and stay for awhile at my mom's. No idea how I'll get back but I need to get out of here and at least I can visit with my mom instead of being alone for 6 whole weeks. I especially cannot have my kids away from their dad that long. Tiernan acts up with his dad gone for a few days. I just don't know what to do. So I may be leaving unexpectedly this friday and going to Calgary. I guess we'll see. It fucks up some other plans I had with friends but they will be here when I get back and they will understand. I just think if I want to make this work with Conal I gotta do this. I know if I don't go I will probably regret it. Anyways I gotta go make dinner since I forgot until now. I'll post more later and as things progress through the week. If I go I will still be online just at my mom's instead.