places that you're going, places that i haven't been
i've been so on edge lately. i don't even know why. it seems like one wrong word and i get all defensive..i just need to relax. its scary to think that almost everyone i know is going to college. even nick. he's like the person who's there when no one else is. what am i going to do with out everyone. i don't even get to be in the conversation when theyre talking about it, im not going to orientation this summer, i don't even know where i want to go. time is rushing in on me, i don't think i'm ready. i remember being a freshman and being like i have so much time to think about college and my future...times almost up. and i'm nervous because i'm the worst at keeping in touch with people. Jordan was already at college and i didn't talk to him the entire time he was there. sad. what else is sad, lawless no ones heard from her as far as i know. and she wasn't planning on really talking to people while she's in europe, i hope its all going good for her. she was so nervous. it made me kind of worry. idk. things just feel like they are about to get really weird once school starts. i need to figure out whats going on with my schedule. ahhh..and i hope asp goes good, all the people i normally talk to arent' going to be there...