To write again, or not to write again? That is the question....
Hey people......whoever still owns one of these anyway....or has time to write...
I guess I'm back? I'm skeptical about it....I found that all I did was complain on here, and it made me look pathetic....but my mom suggests I write on this or book journal...and Idk, I like this a lot better for some reason.
So....update? I suppose...
School:
-I'm getting a 74 in Astronomy......it sucks. The teacher is terrible, in class and one on one. There are no available tutors....and there is no way for me to drop it....So it looks like I will be getting my first C in college....Goodbye dean's list. My mom said not to worry, but the perfectionist in me is not letting that happen.
-Art History sucks my life. I have a midterm thursday, a stack of flash cards in my hand and no will to study them. You would think I would want to since I need to do better in my other classes to counter the C in Astro. Nope...
-Shows wise? I was in a stage reading for Hofstra Entertainment (not department related) met some cool non college people while doing it. It was short and sweet and over before I could blink. i now have it on Dvd. I am Stage Managing my friend Richie's senior practicum. It's kinda fun.
Love life wise? nada. nothing. zilch. zippo. 1 year and 1/2 (come january) since i've gotten any physical attraction my way....not to mention emotional.
-I am lonely as fuck. I just want someone to at least "crush" me back. It is PATHETIC to be crushing on johnny depp and edward cullen, the fictional character of twilight. Oh and to live vicariously through every tv show I watch.
Life in general?
-I've gone to three funerals in the past few months, and now my grandpa, who I live with for 12 or 13 years, who was in an assisted living home for a year is in the hospital. I am worried sick. I can't take it.
-I switched from one "pill" to yaz. It fucked with my hormones and moods. I was zoning out while driving. did it 3 times last week.
1) made me almost miss my exit,
2)made me bump the car in front of me while waiting at a light,
3)was with two friends in the car and i ran a red light, while cars were coming from the other side. I've also been bursting out into tears randomly...i've gained 30 lbs since i started any pill at all. (from general weight gain and increased appetite) yeah....lots of shit. I am off yaz as of friday.....it was a good decision. it's not like
a) im having sex
b) i even have a boyfriend to think about sex with.
so it's not detrimental for me to be on it right now.
-Finally, I will be seeing a therapist at school on monday. So don't you worry.
There's your update everyone.
Enjoy.
-Alex-
I guess I'm back? I'm skeptical about it....I found that all I did was complain on here, and it made me look pathetic....but my mom suggests I write on this or book journal...and Idk, I like this a lot better for some reason.
So....update? I suppose...
School:
-I'm getting a 74 in Astronomy......it sucks. The teacher is terrible, in class and one on one. There are no available tutors....and there is no way for me to drop it....So it looks like I will be getting my first C in college....Goodbye dean's list. My mom said not to worry, but the perfectionist in me is not letting that happen.
-Art History sucks my life. I have a midterm thursday, a stack of flash cards in my hand and no will to study them. You would think I would want to since I need to do better in my other classes to counter the C in Astro. Nope...
-Shows wise? I was in a stage reading for Hofstra Entertainment (not department related) met some cool non college people while doing it. It was short and sweet and over before I could blink. i now have it on Dvd. I am Stage Managing my friend Richie's senior practicum. It's kinda fun.
Love life wise? nada. nothing. zilch. zippo. 1 year and 1/2 (come january) since i've gotten any physical attraction my way....not to mention emotional.
-I am lonely as fuck. I just want someone to at least "crush" me back. It is PATHETIC to be crushing on johnny depp and edward cullen, the fictional character of twilight. Oh and to live vicariously through every tv show I watch.
Life in general?
-I've gone to three funerals in the past few months, and now my grandpa, who I live with for 12 or 13 years, who was in an assisted living home for a year is in the hospital. I am worried sick. I can't take it.
-I switched from one "pill" to yaz. It fucked with my hormones and moods. I was zoning out while driving. did it 3 times last week.
1) made me almost miss my exit,
2)made me bump the car in front of me while waiting at a light,
3)was with two friends in the car and i ran a red light, while cars were coming from the other side. I've also been bursting out into tears randomly...i've gained 30 lbs since i started any pill at all. (from general weight gain and increased appetite) yeah....lots of shit. I am off yaz as of friday.....it was a good decision. it's not like
a) im having sex
b) i even have a boyfriend to think about sex with.
so it's not detrimental for me to be on it right now.
-Finally, I will be seeing a therapist at school on monday. So don't you worry.
There's your update everyone.
Enjoy.
-Alex-