so i have a "book" journal
yeah...i figure for my realllly bad serious stuff...and sometimes the trivial...why not? but i just felt like writing in this..cuz who knows when ill really write in it anymore.
not only do i really miss the companionship of having a boyfriend....i miss the physical part. yeah...okay everyone can gasp! Oh my g-d! Alex the angel misses the sexual part of the relationship!!! yes. yes i do. I matured so much from my last boyfriend....i just feel like it was just ripped out of my hands..and now there is no one out there. i choose to stop looking for a guy cuz it hurts when you look and no one looks back. it's pretty much useless.
hell i even have my dance teacher from HS asking if i have a boyfriend yet.....no, no i don't and thanks for rubbing it in. I've been trying to ignore this whole situation cuz im young.....but....yeah.....its hard. especially when there are A LOT of straight theatre guys in the drama dept...well they aren't talking to me really...so there goes that.
fuuuuuuck it. oh and ive been struggling with becoming an RA or not...i made a pro and cons list in my journal...the cons are beating the pros by a land slide.
yeah....
-alex-
not only do i really miss the companionship of having a boyfriend....i miss the physical part. yeah...okay everyone can gasp! Oh my g-d! Alex the angel misses the sexual part of the relationship!!! yes. yes i do. I matured so much from my last boyfriend....i just feel like it was just ripped out of my hands..and now there is no one out there. i choose to stop looking for a guy cuz it hurts when you look and no one looks back. it's pretty much useless.
hell i even have my dance teacher from HS asking if i have a boyfriend yet.....no, no i don't and thanks for rubbing it in. I've been trying to ignore this whole situation cuz im young.....but....yeah.....its hard. especially when there are A LOT of straight theatre guys in the drama dept...well they aren't talking to me really...so there goes that.
fuuuuuuck it. oh and ive been struggling with becoming an RA or not...i made a pro and cons list in my journal...the cons are beating the pros by a land slide.
yeah....
-alex-