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ahh!!!!!!! 18 is going to be the best year of my life i decided. i came full cirlce today, instead of being in a wheel chair, i was pushing somebody else in a wheelchair!!!!!!!!! saturday was wonderful!!! i woke up early, excercised, went for my first real bike ride since being sick, then went to the lake with brook-a aka Bud, then we dressed up, met up with our amazingly awesome friends (joey and chris and Jill) and after a few marital spats, ate at franks, went to the melodrama, and had the best time ever. ever ever ever. and we had dessert and dennys. i love my friends and the play we saw and the fact that i can bring up repulsive issues and conversation topics. joey is adorable. he gave me earrings. and then today, me and brooke hung out with G.G. all day. she seriously is one of my favorite things about life. and she adopted brooke as another great grand daughter, and so now, brookes official name is Bud. i love it! and i love pink floyd.
i love that I am healthy. as of now, i have gained 15 pounds in 3 weeks. but it makes me feel strong. i can walk with my wheelchair or anybody helping me, I can breath without an machines, i am done getting blood transfussions, and I am going off of all of these pills, and I am never never never going back to a hospital. I will never have another panic attack, and I will never fall into the dark place. I had a loving God who has been keeping me alive, I have wonderful friends who keep me from going off the edge, and i have a loving family who is determined to do whatever it takes to ensure i never have to make another one of those midnight hospital runs. never never never never never;. i have an appettite, i eat what i want and what i can, and i move my body until it tells me that It's going to pass out if i don't stop. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOO i'm doing wonderfull!!!!!!!
i'm kind of confused about how im exactly going to make next year happen, so if u could help me, please tell me.
and thank u to all of my school friends who were tolerant of an extra wheel chair, and suprise attack depression and anxiety.
i love that I am healthy. as of now, i have gained 15 pounds in 3 weeks. but it makes me feel strong. i can walk with my wheelchair or anybody helping me, I can breath without an machines, i am done getting blood transfussions, and I am going off of all of these pills, and I am never never never going back to a hospital. I will never have another panic attack, and I will never fall into the dark place. I had a loving God who has been keeping me alive, I have wonderful friends who keep me from going off the edge, and i have a loving family who is determined to do whatever it takes to ensure i never have to make another one of those midnight hospital runs. never never never never never;. i have an appettite, i eat what i want and what i can, and i move my body until it tells me that It's going to pass out if i don't stop. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOO i'm doing wonderfull!!!!!!!
i'm kind of confused about how im exactly going to make next year happen, so if u could help me, please tell me.
and thank u to all of my school friends who were tolerant of an extra wheel chair, and suprise attack depression and anxiety.