can you share my sentiments???
I have been in SD now for about 3 weeks. Nothing has been accomplished, nothing has been salvaged, nothing is anywhere. I need some motivation pills, I need to figure out what the fuck is going on because I think I am turning into one of the most lethargic people alive. I slept in till about 4:30pm and ate and watched TV. Once i get back to Humboldt I'll still have about a week to go hopefully this lack of action will cease. I feel like I'm some how avoiding living, though I go out at night, drink a few down, I still feel uninterested, I'm a bit numb. I don't know why things have gotten harder, I'm pushing myself off a cliff and I'm okay with it... I think. I feel strange, and not having a car is literally killing me, my feet are sore and I think I'm getting a cold. Anyway though ,enough about me how about some shit that does not matter. I have spent most of my money on band shirts and books, which I guess is okay except that I have no motivation to read so the books are slowly being covered with dust. At least my mattress is getting worn in, I've laid in it so much this break I'm beginning to feel like veal. My legs are sore from sitting on them too long, but ya know what I'm okay with it, I'm just dreading starting school again because it's going to be a big change, and sometimes getting off your ass and doing something is a lot harder than it seems when you've been sitting on it so long that it has fallen asleep, we'll see though. I'm off for another night of debauchery and Clint Eastwood kicking ass...probably the other way around, Cheers!!!!