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[iheartprada]

I go back to school Wednesday and I am dreading it. I know once I get there I will have a lot of fun but it will be so hard not being with my friends and Kyle. I have had an amazing summer. Amy was the best roomate ever and turned what was going to be a boring 3 months into a lot of fun. And the best part is, were still getting closer and closer. I have been baby sitting the Tanners and those kids are so much fun. I'll even miss them. For some reason I always feel like I grow up a lot over breaks. Not so much during school. If anything I probably recede in maturity. I made a few decisions like breaking up with Josh and realizing Louisville is definitely where I want to settle down in the future. I want to get a job when I go back to school and start using my money instead of mom and dads.. I just want to be more responsible. Breaking up with Josh has been nuts.. I feel like we break up every day because we constantly argue. He hates that Im dating someone but he has to realize that he has no say in anything I do anymore. And honestly, there is no way I'd ever date him again if he thinks he can talk and treat me the way he does now. He keeps saying he's changed, well I havent seen one thing to show me thats true. So I definitely dont buy it. I like Kyle because he constantly makes me laugh, we always have so much fun together-- I mean we stayed together in Michigan for a week and got along amazing. Its like hes my friend but I have a lot of feelings for him. He's open and very ambitious. He tells me things about how I shouldn't spend so much money and how he wants to take care of me. Hes an all around boy, plays soccer and is really into sports. He appreciates me and the things I do for him. He is just motivating and I can never be in a bad mood when Im around him. Who wouldnt like that?! I cannot believe I have to let that go. I know it won't work long distance but it's just hard. Amy said it best, you don't find it often and youre just going to let it slip away?... Yes I am.. because I desperately need to be single for a while and I need to experience college without a boyfriend. So I dont know.. Im just sad. Really sad.

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It’s cold where you’re going
I hope that your heart’s always warm
I gave you the best
I gave you the best that I had
You passed on the letters and passed on the best that I had

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you’re gracefully falling away

I hate the winter in Lexington
I hate the winter in Lexington
Lexington
-Dashboard Confessional