Today is a good day...
I let myself sleep in to 10am today. That's rare, and I had a sore back and headache when I woke up. I attribute this to stress, but I've decided to do something about it. As much as I can do something about it, anyway.
The fact is, I place way too much importance on every single aspect of my life, from school, to finding a job, to personal relationships, right down to the little mundane things, like finding time to get to the bank or mailing out bills. I decided today that I have to really stand back and consider how important are these things that I'm letting affect my physical, mental and emotional health?
That is not to say that this isn't a very important time for me. I should be worrying about my job for next year and making sure I have everything in order for graduation. Those are big. But am I worrying about them in constructive way, or is there really anything I can do? I've put a lot of effort into job applications. At this point, getting an interview is no longer really in my hands. I'm going to let that sort itself out. Of course, I will be slowly adding to the job application pile as I have time, and I'm focusing now on getting my teaching license, but it's not worth losing sleep over, and generally just being a miserable person.
I've also been worrying a lot about the relationships in my life. I've let a lot of friendships go, either because I just lost touch, or I didn't have the time to devote, or something stupid kind of stunted things. But the truth is, I have good friends all over the country, and if it's meant to be that we meet up again, we will. In the meantime, you're all in my thoughts, and I will always be happy to have known everyone in my life, past and present.
Right now, I've just finished preparing for a conducting lesson I have at 2. I'm going downstairs to do some yoga and see if that helps the chronic back pain I've been having for the last 3 weeks. Then I'm going to the school. If I have time before my lesson, I'll go get my transcripts and paycheck. If not, they will both still be there after. Then, I'm going to hang out a bit with my friend Curtis, and maybe Bryan. Tonight, I will work on my job application to Charlottesville City schools and do my homework for form and analysis. I'm getting really good at making to do lists, and I take a lot of satisfaction in crossing something off. For now, I'm not adding anything to my list. We'll see what happens tomorrow.
The fact is, I place way too much importance on every single aspect of my life, from school, to finding a job, to personal relationships, right down to the little mundane things, like finding time to get to the bank or mailing out bills. I decided today that I have to really stand back and consider how important are these things that I'm letting affect my physical, mental and emotional health?
That is not to say that this isn't a very important time for me. I should be worrying about my job for next year and making sure I have everything in order for graduation. Those are big. But am I worrying about them in constructive way, or is there really anything I can do? I've put a lot of effort into job applications. At this point, getting an interview is no longer really in my hands. I'm going to let that sort itself out. Of course, I will be slowly adding to the job application pile as I have time, and I'm focusing now on getting my teaching license, but it's not worth losing sleep over, and generally just being a miserable person.
I've also been worrying a lot about the relationships in my life. I've let a lot of friendships go, either because I just lost touch, or I didn't have the time to devote, or something stupid kind of stunted things. But the truth is, I have good friends all over the country, and if it's meant to be that we meet up again, we will. In the meantime, you're all in my thoughts, and I will always be happy to have known everyone in my life, past and present.
Right now, I've just finished preparing for a conducting lesson I have at 2. I'm going downstairs to do some yoga and see if that helps the chronic back pain I've been having for the last 3 weeks. Then I'm going to the school. If I have time before my lesson, I'll go get my transcripts and paycheck. If not, they will both still be there after. Then, I'm going to hang out a bit with my friend Curtis, and maybe Bryan. Tonight, I will work on my job application to Charlottesville City schools and do my homework for form and analysis. I'm getting really good at making to do lists, and I take a lot of satisfaction in crossing something off. For now, I'm not adding anything to my list. We'll see what happens tomorrow.