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you know, when you have this pain in your gut and its very uncomfortable so you go to the doctor and you think its nothing and it turns out to be something but not a big something and then he says the words ovaries and cyst(s) in the same sentence as radiology center even if it is just for a sonogram and he says 99.99% chance to be benign and that every factor is on your side because you're young and even if there was a surgery it won't be a big deal because they just make a little cut in your belly button to fish around and drain out a 5 centimeter mass from your ovary that itself isn't much bigger and "it's not a big deal" because even though it is very rare in girls on birth control and you just can't help but have the words cancer run through your head and cancer and malignant and cancer and it's probably nothing but if it is cancer and what if it is cancer even though it won't be because its probably that common cyst not that kind that has the hard tissue in it but what if you're that 00.01% that happens to have the shitty end of the deal and cancer cancer cancer and why can't they operate to take the cyst out anyway because its obvious that i'm in discomfort now and i really just don't want to feel this pain near my gut anymore.
phew.
phew.