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[iheartmcr17]

i been thinking alot lately thinking about everything
mostly last year how everything was so much easier and funner
how i never would had did ne of the things i do know i am just not
happy ne more like i dk what is wrong with me i don;t know what i want
i just know i what change a want something different
i want something spectacular i want something amazing to happen i want
a reason to wake up every morning and go to school
not saying my friends aren;t but i jsut want something more but hten again who doesn't i dk i just know when i am alone i can;t smile and i don;t like that and i am constantly comparing myself to other people thinking if i was different he would come back to me that he would like me or at least care about me something i don;t know i don't get it i don;t need to vent i have done that so much ifeel bad i dk what i am gonna do i am so idk just not happy ne more but i will prolly be fine i am prolly just haveing one of those nights..... idk ..... idk.... i am haveing a hard time expressing how i feel i can;t find the words or nothing