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gosh this weekend was fun, it was really fun
but hten again it sucked
cuz all i thought about was him
how i miss some of the little things i took for granted
him calling me, him always touching me ( not in dirty ways you perverts)
he always use to say i love u
he hasn;t said it for a while
i guess my fault, i guess i couldn;t see what was rightin front of me
or i did and i was scared cuz i knew if we got together we would never be apart
i guess i thougth he would always be there
no i am not only losing him as that but also as a friend
i am so scared of losing him totally
i want to tell him how i feel but i am scared what if he doesn;t feeel hte same
it is not something i willjust get over
maybe if i wasn't such a slut and moved to so many guys
it is probably hard to believe i actually love him but i do
i can see us spending forever together
i am have probably said that before but this time it is real
cuz i have felt it before and i thought i made it go away by likeing guys
but it still remains
he is still the last thing i think about before i go to sleep
and the first thing i think of when i wake up
idk i am so confused
and there is no one to talk to about it
no on who will actually listen and not started talking about there problems
i know htat sounds selfish but htat is what i need
some one to listen and someone to comfort me
but hte worst part about that is
he is the only one who will
but hten again it sucked
cuz all i thought about was him
how i miss some of the little things i took for granted
him calling me, him always touching me ( not in dirty ways you perverts)
he always use to say i love u
he hasn;t said it for a while
i guess my fault, i guess i couldn;t see what was rightin front of me
or i did and i was scared cuz i knew if we got together we would never be apart
i guess i thougth he would always be there
no i am not only losing him as that but also as a friend
i am so scared of losing him totally
i want to tell him how i feel but i am scared what if he doesn;t feeel hte same
it is not something i willjust get over
maybe if i wasn't such a slut and moved to so many guys
it is probably hard to believe i actually love him but i do
i can see us spending forever together
i am have probably said that before but this time it is real
cuz i have felt it before and i thought i made it go away by likeing guys
but it still remains
he is still the last thing i think about before i go to sleep
and the first thing i think of when i wake up
idk i am so confused
and there is no one to talk to about it
no on who will actually listen and not started talking about there problems
i know htat sounds selfish but htat is what i need
some one to listen and someone to comfort me
but hte worst part about that is
he is the only one who will