diving woes

[iheartlyz]

fast post becuase i have such a busy life now... not
first day of diving
im underwaeighted and bouyant
were in a very cold quarry
i need to be pulled down to descend adn i shoot to the surface
oh and my tank keeps falling off
great
well my ear hurt and leaked the whole way home
so no diving yestarady i went to a good doctor in durham
i perforated my ear drum
thats no fun
i cant dive for 2 weeks
and i have to see him the day before we go to bermuda to see if i can dive then
my ear leaks sometimes and its normally a reddish color
disheartening
so now im off for two weeks
while everyone else buss their asses
makes me feel kinda shitty
i had a big breakdown the day it happened
and cried a lot when was here
like a lot
it felt like i couldnt do this and i didnt know what else to do
but after careful consideration
less pain
and discussions
i know i can still do this
if diving doesnt work its ok ive busted my ass
getting good grades and learning a lot
and i can still be an archaeologist anyway
so i am less sad

i plan on spending my free days
working on fin aid because they are a bunch of fuck ups
and trying to find and research a thesis

the stress is fading
but im jealous bc tyler and some of my friends get to go baot diving today
off shore
to take videos and pictures of sharks
i want to do that!

i mihgt still be able to dive in bermuda despite missing all the training dives
only time will tell

oi