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it actaully breaks my heart knowing that i wont be able to get excited that Tom will be coming out to Applebees or to hang out when i get home
he was always someone i looked forward to seeing, and hugging and laughing with
and even if he was in a dark mood he still made my night
i mean i fucking got giddy about seeing Tom and all the adventures we could have
and it is SO hard to be far from home
and its days and days later
and i am still breaking down
but at the same time
i have some peace
because i know
Tom was one of those people
who was not made for this earth
he just never could get it all together
and i like to think maybe hes in a better place now
like hopefully he's finally fully happy
I would not be who i am today with out Tom
He helped me see how incredibly sexy it is to be who you are
and he was just an important part of my home life
i am excited for christmas but also devastated that he wont be there
and that i will never again get a tom hug
and ill never get to ask how his missing finger is
This is a link to the shirt his brother made from his art
http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=172964304304&h=le-bu&u=UR_Bv&ref=mf
its just perfect
It says "a hug is worth a thousand words but a friend is worth more"
and its so true
sometimes i just have hard days with this
sometimes i have wonderful ones and Tom is there in the black house with blue shutters or the song on the radio or the way someone says something hes right there smiling and letting me know its ok
sometimes i just get sad
and its weird that no one here knew him
he was always someone i looked forward to seeing, and hugging and laughing with
and even if he was in a dark mood he still made my night
i mean i fucking got giddy about seeing Tom and all the adventures we could have
and it is SO hard to be far from home
and its days and days later
and i am still breaking down
but at the same time
i have some peace
because i know
Tom was one of those people
who was not made for this earth
he just never could get it all together
and i like to think maybe hes in a better place now
like hopefully he's finally fully happy
I would not be who i am today with out Tom
He helped me see how incredibly sexy it is to be who you are
and he was just an important part of my home life
i am excited for christmas but also devastated that he wont be there
and that i will never again get a tom hug
and ill never get to ask how his missing finger is
This is a link to the shirt his brother made from his art
http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=172964304304&h=le-bu&u=UR_Bv&ref=mf
its just perfect
It says "a hug is worth a thousand words but a friend is worth more"
and its so true
sometimes i just have hard days with this
sometimes i have wonderful ones and Tom is there in the black house with blue shutters or the song on the radio or the way someone says something hes right there smiling and letting me know its ok
sometimes i just get sad
and its weird that no one here knew him