i really think I'm retarded
Why do I do what I do? I mean why can't I just let go? I'm retarded. Actually I'm insane. The basic definition for insanity is doing something over and over again and expecting a different result. But if that's true then wouldn't all people who have hope for something be crazy? Wouldn't everyone who can't control a situation but believes in miracles and hopes that a situation will change be crazy? You don't even want to know how many times i deleted different versions of that last sentence. Everyone tells me I should give up and stop hoping, but isn't that one of the few things that makes us human? We do everything we can until there's nothing more that can be done and then we hope. We hope because we can't change. We hope because we do inherently believe that in the end good will triumph over bad and we WILL one day end up happy . I hope that all who read this end their days happy and I will do as much as I can to make that my ending until I can do no more. Until all I have left is my hope.... my insanity.
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