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im really hurtin' without a journal right now. just got so much on the brain, really. that was so. good. mostly talkin' to carl, though. but also really very good to talk to the ladies and hear about their adventurous days. felt good to tell her bout laguna beach to mission viejo, and the dude that used to live in hilo. love it. and that shooting star. holey moley, it was so beautiful. god damn. i am so excited for the star app. really, really. i just want him to hold me in his arms. i love that feeling. of being so loved, so safe. he made me feel safe. dayum. sometimes when i think about it too much, i wanna cry. didnt mean to hurt his feelings too much, just trying to keep it real, ya know? i can be here but still think about him. i'm still thinking about hawaii all the time. can't stop. tomorrow will be a great daay to get things done. i can't wait. i wanna drink coffee, walk dogs, write resume, buy journal, land job? apply iag, too...just for back up, ya never know. basically just get my head in the game. WE SEE, WE SEE. I JUST WANNA GET BUSY. can't stop thinking about hawaii and those guys. and i know they're not even going to be there soon, but carl still will be. i hope that he gets to work on the land there. i hope it all works out, honestly. i dont knowwhere i'd rightly stay. maybe that surf hostel @ richardons. anywhere to start, i think. my voice is seriosuly shit. can't wait to get it back up to sppeed.