update, woohoo!
wowwwwwwwwwww
ok, with that said, perhaps now i can start to explain.
lately life has been both horrific, and amazing. sooo much has changed!!! im back at home, and enjoying the peaceful safe suburban lifestyle once again. no trains, buses, crazy people, traffic, and all the other chaos the city brings. thats not to say i dont miss it, of course. i love the city, and perhaps will move back there in the fall. not sure yet, and i dont want to decide that just yet.
i got a job!! Toys R Us, haha. and i might be getting a job as a receptionist in a dental office.. haha im petrified of the dentist. perhaps this will help? haha
my daddy is in town this weekend!! i went to dinner last nite and hung out at the house and i dont know... it just felt so... right. like, finding a missing puzzle piece. tonight we are having a big family dinner, and im so excited. Aaron was invited! haha. hes totally down for it. i only mentioned it as a joke, i mean, he was invited, but i didnt actually expect him to want to go. guys can be fidgety when u mention the meet the parents stuff, but he is totally down for it! yay.
hmm what else...
havent really checked myspace or livejournal as much lately. and havent used my sidekick as much. partly because its been sorta half working only, but also because i find when im hanging out at aarons with all the boys and gerry, i just forget about it. weird, huh? haha.
ive been having weird dreams about my nana being sick. i think its because i am so anxious to go to boston to visit her, my mom, and my sister. my sister has a bf, my mom, stan, and sister moved into their own place, and so much other stuff is happening without me there. its not fair! they should have to pause when im not there haha.
im so much happier lately. people are noticing. i have better news to tell when they ask how i am. i sound happier. i AM happier!
i know i messed up. i know i did stuff to hurt people and that hurt myself as well. and i cant change that, but i can change how i am now, how i will be tomorrow. and u know what? i have! change doesnt happen overnight, this i know, but there is definitely a noticable wonderful change taking place.
i was telling my dad last nite "wow, lately i just feel so...normal!" haha. its true! suburbs, family, aaron, working....its all so peaceful and mature and fun. weird to look back on a few months ago and all the stupid, chaotic, stressful days i had and realize...yikes! what was i thinking????
it just goes to show, windows are opened when doors are closed. and who really needs the door with a view like this?
ok, with that said, perhaps now i can start to explain.
lately life has been both horrific, and amazing. sooo much has changed!!! im back at home, and enjoying the peaceful safe suburban lifestyle once again. no trains, buses, crazy people, traffic, and all the other chaos the city brings. thats not to say i dont miss it, of course. i love the city, and perhaps will move back there in the fall. not sure yet, and i dont want to decide that just yet.
i got a job!! Toys R Us, haha. and i might be getting a job as a receptionist in a dental office.. haha im petrified of the dentist. perhaps this will help? haha
my daddy is in town this weekend!! i went to dinner last nite and hung out at the house and i dont know... it just felt so... right. like, finding a missing puzzle piece. tonight we are having a big family dinner, and im so excited. Aaron was invited! haha. hes totally down for it. i only mentioned it as a joke, i mean, he was invited, but i didnt actually expect him to want to go. guys can be fidgety when u mention the meet the parents stuff, but he is totally down for it! yay.
hmm what else...
havent really checked myspace or livejournal as much lately. and havent used my sidekick as much. partly because its been sorta half working only, but also because i find when im hanging out at aarons with all the boys and gerry, i just forget about it. weird, huh? haha.
ive been having weird dreams about my nana being sick. i think its because i am so anxious to go to boston to visit her, my mom, and my sister. my sister has a bf, my mom, stan, and sister moved into their own place, and so much other stuff is happening without me there. its not fair! they should have to pause when im not there haha.
im so much happier lately. people are noticing. i have better news to tell when they ask how i am. i sound happier. i AM happier!
i know i messed up. i know i did stuff to hurt people and that hurt myself as well. and i cant change that, but i can change how i am now, how i will be tomorrow. and u know what? i have! change doesnt happen overnight, this i know, but there is definitely a noticable wonderful change taking place.
i was telling my dad last nite "wow, lately i just feel so...normal!" haha. its true! suburbs, family, aaron, working....its all so peaceful and mature and fun. weird to look back on a few months ago and all the stupid, chaotic, stressful days i had and realize...yikes! what was i thinking????
it just goes to show, windows are opened when doors are closed. and who really needs the door with a view like this?