Mr. Hunter
I don't even know... what the fuck to say. I need to put this down somewhere. I will definitely not write anything on facebook about you because that shit is just fucking retarded. I love you like my own brother. I always will. I know you had lots of troubles and shit. I wish something could have helped. I honestly feel horrible about wanting you and Ellie to be apart but I just didn't think it was healthy at all for her. It wasn't. You knew i had a problem with it because I care a great fucking deal about her...More than anyone. But since you became a part of her life...you became a part of mine, which I'm so thankful for. We had a lot of good times being ridiculous and times we just didn't give a fuck about anything. I miss your laugh and smile more than anything. I'm really glad I got to talk to you at christmas because that was really the last time I got to talk to you. I really wish I got to talk to you more. But we were both just doing our own thing. I really am deciding to dedicate every fantastic new song I hear to you, and every bike ride I take. I love you brother. I miss the awkward times that I'd weird you out then I'd just laugh and be like bahhh haha that's right I'm a crazy. I love you so much Nickyyy. This is so fucking hard. I will never forget you...how could I? Fuck.
I love you.
I love you.