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what to say, what to say...............
well i've been thinking bout all kinds of stuff but mostly what i want in the future and how i am so sick of being let down, crushed or rejected. not that i have been lately, maybe on some small scale every now and then but i'm just so sick of not being "the one" the one who it all works out for. i'm so sick of not getting what i think i should have....but really what "should" i have anyways? its' not up to me. all i know is the good girl always wins and the girls like me, well we'll have to see.
i just want to be content wherever i am in my life as long as it pleases God. and i want to share my life and a bond with someone..... a companion. i want to be loved, respected and cherished. i want to find someone as impulsive and spontaneous as myself someone who can make me laugh and pee my pants. someone who tries their damndest to understand me and who doesnt care when they dont.......they just love me anyways.....a person who is always there and reliable, no matter what. no games no guessing. i want to have fun with him, and just take off for adventures when we can. someone who is always up for doing super cool crazy fun things but doesnt mind when we do absolutely nothing. just someone to be there, someone who pays attention......to me:) I cant say i've ever had this, but somehow i miss it.
this may sound completely pathetic and it sorta is i guess........but whatevs!!!!!! this was more for me, just get my thoughts down, than for anything else.