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yesterday, february 11 2007 was the ultimate worst day of my life. i have never cried so hard. i have never shaken so much. i have never been so cold. i have never said "this isnt me. this isnt where i belong." i cant even describe how i'm feeling right now... more so, i cant even describe how i felt yesterday. i just wish more than anything it was a dream, and not something thats actually going to affect the rest of my life. i'm speechless. i'm pissed off at myself. and i'm hurting more than i ever, ever have. for the first time in my life, i dont see any light at the end of the tunnel and i absolutely don't know what to do.