forgot stuff....
yeah yesterday i hung out with yell too... she kinda pissed me off cause she lied to me and said she had to go visit her cousins but i know she was going to jacks house with nick probably... id unno why she does that. im not dumb and then she talks to nick about it on the phone right in front of me like im an idiot... but i dont say anything. yell really is sweet and its damn near impossible to get pissed at her. i dont know why she doenst just tell me shes doing other stuff later. its not like i care if she has a life other than hanging out with me... its not like im tanya... oh fuck did i say that? oh and another thing. remember that super cute chick dezi that gets me drugs and i like her a lot? im so sad i called the other day and asked where she was. and her mommy said she was in the hospital and i asked what for and her mom was just like...we just had to put her there but ill let her know you tried to call.... im thinking either she oded on sum shit or tried to off herself which i dont really think is the case. she doesnt seem insanely depressed but ya never know. but shes all crazey with
drugs and likes to mix them and drink and all that fun stuff which is totally no good. i was supposed to chill with her or sumthing. and im sad now. oh and ive been debateing calling the adam boy. but im pretty sure it was just one of those things where you chill a few times make out and then never talk to eachother ever again. but i think i scared him cause somehow the topic of relationships came up while we were hanging out and i was like i wouldnt mind haveing a relationship with him and i know hes not teh relationship type. im not really either i dont think ive had a boyfriend for more than like 3 months if that... i allways brake up with them but then if theres a guy i superly like they brake up with me... go figure. but i dunno even if we just hung out again and smoked and like didnt do anything or whatever i wouldnt care cause i just like being aroudn him cause he makes me laugh so much and hes so cute personality wise. hes just ammuseing to me. but its like we dont really know eachother so i never expected anything to happen in the first place but i think he may have gotten the impression that i did... but i dont and thats totally not cool. *sigh* and i need to get laid.... its been 3 months. it seems so long but its not really. wait i forgot i dont like sex... nevermind
drugs and likes to mix them and drink and all that fun stuff which is totally no good. i was supposed to chill with her or sumthing. and im sad now. oh and ive been debateing calling the adam boy. but im pretty sure it was just one of those things where you chill a few times make out and then never talk to eachother ever again. but i think i scared him cause somehow the topic of relationships came up while we were hanging out and i was like i wouldnt mind haveing a relationship with him and i know hes not teh relationship type. im not really either i dont think ive had a boyfriend for more than like 3 months if that... i allways brake up with them but then if theres a guy i superly like they brake up with me... go figure. but i dunno even if we just hung out again and smoked and like didnt do anything or whatever i wouldnt care cause i just like being aroudn him cause he makes me laugh so much and hes so cute personality wise. hes just ammuseing to me. but its like we dont really know eachother so i never expected anything to happen in the first place but i think he may have gotten the impression that i did... but i dont and thats totally not cool. *sigh* and i need to get laid.... its been 3 months. it seems so long but its not really. wait i forgot i dont like sex... nevermind