god.
I passed drivers ed.. woo [i said that sarcastically] it was completely pointless me for to take it at all! It's not like we can afford to pay the 170$ that I have to, to get my permit err.. man this makes me so mad. Their all why does it matter anyways it nots like your gonna have anything to drive.. you know their right.. I jus get a job and quit being such a burden to my family I freaking hate me. I hate myself so much I feel like I try so hard but the more I try the more no body really cares. At all :[ I jus want to be able to say yeah I got my license or yeah I can drive you know? A lot of people I know they might not have the most money in the world but hey at least their parents were willing to pay for drivers ed. No my dads freaking in wyoming at least 1000 miles if not more away from me.. hes jus in and out of my life constantly. My mom shes always at work and when I ask her for something I feel like I'm asking too much so I jus put back whatever I wanna get or I jus say forget it and go in my room and get mad at myself cuz I feel dumb. Today really seemed like a good day.. christmas is going to suck the shoes.. most the only thing I really really wanted for christmas their all sold out and I've been trying to get a hold of lauren but I think she's gone or something.. I don't really know cuz she's not answering her phone. I jus wanna get away.. thats why tonight Imma ask my mom if I can go to her house tomorrow so that I can get away from this gay stressful home.. hmm now I don't know if I want anything for christmas at all cuz according to my family what I ask for is "too much" but hey I'm a teenage girl.. what do they expect? Just because they can wear whatever they want and no body will say anything doesn't mean I can. But yeah.. imma go I'm kinda irritated right now. bye.
patricia
patricia