too many things are changing
and I don't really like it
I guess part of it is my fault and then part isn't
but then the other part, I can't even control.
it's still months to go and they just have to pass a couple more tests
but then they'll be gone
I know I barely feel alone now
but once they're gone
I'll definitely feel completely alone.
I know I have the people around me in Nac and everything
but none of them fill what used to be there
only one really can but its just one person
where there used to be three friends and three family members.
six spaces can't be filled by just one person
no matter how big he is.
this is probably trivial to everyone else
but it's big to me.
I was hoping next fall would come as soon as possible
but now I just want the summer to come
and stay as long as possible
because then I won't have to fill in six spaces,
I'll have to make room for seven
I guess part of it is my fault and then part isn't
but then the other part, I can't even control.
it's still months to go and they just have to pass a couple more tests
but then they'll be gone
I know I barely feel alone now
but once they're gone
I'll definitely feel completely alone.
I know I have the people around me in Nac and everything
but none of them fill what used to be there
only one really can but its just one person
where there used to be three friends and three family members.
six spaces can't be filled by just one person
no matter how big he is.
this is probably trivial to everyone else
but it's big to me.
I was hoping next fall would come as soon as possible
but now I just want the summer to come
and stay as long as possible
because then I won't have to fill in six spaces,
I'll have to make room for seven