my rock is gone.... for now
It is 1:00 am. I have work at 7:30 am. I have now tried going to bed twice. after the first time i ate a bit, had some apple juice, talked to the roomies, took some tylenol pm because my head has been pounding all day from crying and tried going to sleep again. laid there for 45 minutes wide awake. got up again. its been 8.5 hours and i am already dying. Y did i do this to myself. i regret it already. i neeeed to talk to you. i want to see you. but it was my idea. the one thing in my life i knew in my heart would always be there..... is gone..... for now. what have i done? I want it to be march 25th and this whole thing be over with. I think i finally ran out of tears