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Stop right there...
this is where i lost it.
this is how i picture myself.
standing outside of your door soaking wet in the rain.
asking for your forgiveness.
i want it so bad.
and all i can see is.. you
a. slamming the door in myface.
b. storybook ending... you sweep me off my feet.. again.
who i am hates who ive been..
i dont want you know where i am
then you would see my HEART in the saddest place its ever been.
im so confuddled with life lately.
i think way to much
i love way to much
i never know what the real thing feels like.
what was i thinking?
what am i still thinking
im so blind..
FAWK.
im a good actress.
im sorry.
im ready to never become that way again.
theres so much pressure.
im gonna blow up.
ive got myself together
and ill watch it fall apart again.