here i go...scream my lungs out
i'd like to say that i am wise and i could share my wisdom with everyone who would read this but idk if i am just stupid or if i figured out something deep sometimes, like the other night...i cried and i felt better and then the next night i didnt get to cry and i felt like shit and it made me think crying is like throwing up, u dont wanna do it but u need to in order to feel better and tears are like poison if you let them eat away at you and dont get rid of them they will tear you up inside. i'm sitting here like a loser eating cheetos and drinking pop and listening to a song that makes me want to cry and im reminiscing on memories i should let go because they are gone forever. life is so funny lately and people are so random..the only constant thing anymore is change. im singing so loud and ready to cry on and off and im talking to a friend who i never talked deep to before and he really is surprising me! i almost wish i had the guts to just go in front of a million people and sing and then i'd stand there with my heart on my sleeve more vulnerable than ever and let people eat away at me and just get over the embarassment all at once. i just always wear my heart on my sleeve...i never want to be forgotten but im scared of how i might be remembered...thats all i have to say