Where noone knows my name
"I'll remember that old place until my dying end These thoughts are like old photos that I cannot throw away On the quest for normalcy, the grass on the other side All my hopes and my fucking dreams I left burried there, somewhere far behind I'll push it down and turn my back no matter how I try Who I was and what I wanted comes flooding to my mind That girl with a cause and the prettiest of eyes All my hopes and my fucking dreams I left burried there, somewhere far behind"
wow, that sounds like a good song, i should really listen to it sometime. a lot of crap has been going on lately i dont even know where to start...josh and i havent been hanging out a lot and i always get scared that we're growing apart again but he assures me that we are ok and he loves me just as much as he ever has so i feel better. i dont always show it or even know it but he holds me together...i mean i hate to be so blantantly dependant on a guy but i know after almost 2 years that he isnt just any guy. in one month from today i will have known him for 2 years and in one month and 20 days, we will have been together for 2 years. geez that is weird i mean to think that i want to spend the rest of my life with him and we only knew eachother for like 3 weeks before we started dating...i like that=) he has so many dreams and i just want to be there to watch them all come true because i know they will, he is so determined and smart...i'm so lucky=) i also wanted to say a few things to some ppl that i havent had the chance to tell them...
:::Melissa::: so much shit has been happening since you moved with us getting mad or annoyed with eachother and other ppl getting involved or other ppl mad and us getting involved and you not being here every day is weird. i miss you a lot and i dont say it often because its not easy to go out on a limb. i never thought i could adjust without you and i have, i think it is because i realize that all miles are to us is just a longer road to eachother, not a block between us. i love you so much and you will always be my best friend=)
:::Jessica::: i know you feel like you have nobody and i have changed but none of that is true, i am still here for you and i am still me just bc we spent a lot of time apart doesn't mean that anything has changed...you can still come to me for ANYTHING even if i say "Jez...you would" I am still always honored in a way that you choose to confide in me. please don't ever shut me out, i love you like a sister and I always want to be a part of your life...forever
:::Liz::: i'm glad we've been getting closer lately, it feels good and i know our moms are rejoicing lol they've been waiting for the continuence of our sleep overs for a while now and i think they both feel better when we are together...kinda like we're little kids again and we know they could both use a lil smile=) it's weird how after almost 10 years i still feel like i can trust you with anything but its not all serious, we still have a ball even if we're just playing cards in my bed and sharing 'scandalous' stories! i love you
:::Sarah::: i'll be honest when i say that i probably trust you more than 3/4 of the people in my life, you are just that kinda friend that is really dependable and i have always respected that. i wanna be there for you too and i hope you feel like you can count on me the way that i count on you. we need to hang out soon!
:::Laura::: jesus christ...where do i begin?! you are a scandalous honey with lots of delicious!j/k haha dude we have so much fun and i couldnt imagine going on a car ride and screaming my lungs off without you=) it just wouldnt be the same! i know we've never been too close 1 on 1 but i want to be cuz i know u'r a good friend and i want u to know no matter what...i'll always listen if u need to talk and im here for ya;)
:::Kelly::: hey sexy mama it was fun hanging out with ya recently even if collin was embarassed half the time (that was the fun part) lol nobody laughs at my stupid jokes like you do and i must thank you for it haha and where would we be without JUKA?¿ so many ppl say it now...we should copyright that shit!lol give me a 'jingle on the jangle' lmao
:::Jay::: dang girl i miss you already! i feel bad now taht we never hung out just the 2 of us except for that ONE infamous sleepover where we discovered our mothers had more in common than we did! haha and we hung out when we were little and didnt even know it, that's weird shit and then remember how me u and mel had those shorts so we were like 'meant to be' friends or something?! yeah hehe good times, i hope we dont lose touch and i hope you love texas! the south will rise again...jk
:::Highland Guys::: I miss you all a lot and i hope we dont all lose touch when you all go off to college. youguys really affected mine and most of my best friend's lives and we went through a lot of good and bad shit but the good times only stand out and i love all you so much for your own special reasons=) i'll never forget how me and mel got grounded for spending the night at chuck's while we watched alex and jon play truth or dare...weird...lol chuck ur sister is cool! so is ur brother=) tell him i said hey lol and jon: call me sometime we need to get our friendship started again! p.s. carr...omg u'r the shit haha
:::Kori::: last but not least, my sister. i know u think i dont care about you and what u have to say but that's so far from it...i just dont want to argue because i know we have a lot of different view points but i still feel really close to you and i like play fighting in front of dad and getting yelled at=) i hope everything works out with eric and i want you to know that i think what you did with that 'problem' and the police was really respectable...that guy needed a reality check and i respect you a lot...i love you so much and no matter how close we are with our friends and boyfriends, we will always be just a little bit closer to eachother cuz we're family
wow, that sounds like a good song, i should really listen to it sometime. a lot of crap has been going on lately i dont even know where to start...josh and i havent been hanging out a lot and i always get scared that we're growing apart again but he assures me that we are ok and he loves me just as much as he ever has so i feel better. i dont always show it or even know it but he holds me together...i mean i hate to be so blantantly dependant on a guy but i know after almost 2 years that he isnt just any guy. in one month from today i will have known him for 2 years and in one month and 20 days, we will have been together for 2 years. geez that is weird i mean to think that i want to spend the rest of my life with him and we only knew eachother for like 3 weeks before we started dating...i like that=) he has so many dreams and i just want to be there to watch them all come true because i know they will, he is so determined and smart...i'm so lucky=) i also wanted to say a few things to some ppl that i havent had the chance to tell them...
:::Melissa::: so much shit has been happening since you moved with us getting mad or annoyed with eachother and other ppl getting involved or other ppl mad and us getting involved and you not being here every day is weird. i miss you a lot and i dont say it often because its not easy to go out on a limb. i never thought i could adjust without you and i have, i think it is because i realize that all miles are to us is just a longer road to eachother, not a block between us. i love you so much and you will always be my best friend=)
:::Jessica::: i know you feel like you have nobody and i have changed but none of that is true, i am still here for you and i am still me just bc we spent a lot of time apart doesn't mean that anything has changed...you can still come to me for ANYTHING even if i say "Jez...you would" I am still always honored in a way that you choose to confide in me. please don't ever shut me out, i love you like a sister and I always want to be a part of your life...forever
:::Liz::: i'm glad we've been getting closer lately, it feels good and i know our moms are rejoicing lol they've been waiting for the continuence of our sleep overs for a while now and i think they both feel better when we are together...kinda like we're little kids again and we know they could both use a lil smile=) it's weird how after almost 10 years i still feel like i can trust you with anything but its not all serious, we still have a ball even if we're just playing cards in my bed and sharing 'scandalous' stories! i love you
:::Sarah::: i'll be honest when i say that i probably trust you more than 3/4 of the people in my life, you are just that kinda friend that is really dependable and i have always respected that. i wanna be there for you too and i hope you feel like you can count on me the way that i count on you. we need to hang out soon!
:::Laura::: jesus christ...where do i begin?! you are a scandalous honey with lots of delicious!j/k haha dude we have so much fun and i couldnt imagine going on a car ride and screaming my lungs off without you=) it just wouldnt be the same! i know we've never been too close 1 on 1 but i want to be cuz i know u'r a good friend and i want u to know no matter what...i'll always listen if u need to talk and im here for ya;)
:::Kelly::: hey sexy mama it was fun hanging out with ya recently even if collin was embarassed half the time (that was the fun part) lol nobody laughs at my stupid jokes like you do and i must thank you for it haha and where would we be without JUKA?¿ so many ppl say it now...we should copyright that shit!lol give me a 'jingle on the jangle' lmao
:::Jay::: dang girl i miss you already! i feel bad now taht we never hung out just the 2 of us except for that ONE infamous sleepover where we discovered our mothers had more in common than we did! haha and we hung out when we were little and didnt even know it, that's weird shit and then remember how me u and mel had those shorts so we were like 'meant to be' friends or something?! yeah hehe good times, i hope we dont lose touch and i hope you love texas! the south will rise again...jk
:::Highland Guys::: I miss you all a lot and i hope we dont all lose touch when you all go off to college. youguys really affected mine and most of my best friend's lives and we went through a lot of good and bad shit but the good times only stand out and i love all you so much for your own special reasons=) i'll never forget how me and mel got grounded for spending the night at chuck's while we watched alex and jon play truth or dare...weird...lol chuck ur sister is cool! so is ur brother=) tell him i said hey lol and jon: call me sometime we need to get our friendship started again! p.s. carr...omg u'r the shit haha
:::Kori::: last but not least, my sister. i know u think i dont care about you and what u have to say but that's so far from it...i just dont want to argue because i know we have a lot of different view points but i still feel really close to you and i like play fighting in front of dad and getting yelled at=) i hope everything works out with eric and i want you to know that i think what you did with that 'problem' and the police was really respectable...that guy needed a reality check and i respect you a lot...i love you so much and no matter how close we are with our friends and boyfriends, we will always be just a little bit closer to eachother cuz we're family