seeing really is believing
i just got back from the funeral i feel better now that i went it was sad and britney didnt look real but im glad i went i saw them all smile while i was there i caught john tracy and ashley smiling at least once that made me feel better cuz i know there going to be ok i cant even believe how strong john is its his daughter laying in the casket and i walked up to him and he gave me a hug and asked if i was ok and started talking about each day i get more and more beautiful. i miss ashleys family. i went back into a room where ashleys cousins were to see them cuz i havent seen them for a while and caitlins only 6 and i walked in the room and she started yelling i saw the caskets!! i was like what and she said valerie double dared me to open that door and theres a bunch of caskets back there lol i feel really bad cuz today was just the showing and i cant go to the actual funeral and burial tomorrow cuz i have to work and i wont be home in time but anyways other than that all i did today was go to the doctor and sit around being bored which is what im going to do all night cuz nicks working and my familys gonna be at my brothers game but i think im gonna go and start my boredom lol buh bye
i <3 nicholas