is that alright with you?
May 11th 2007 9:16 pm
We're staying the night in Weed because the car was smoking hella about a half an hour ago. This guy in the super mkt was following me all around and staring me
down. Creeped me the hell out, I don't think I've ever been THAT scared of a way a person looked at me. Had I been alone I don't know what I would have done. I am sure
he would have kidnapped me. We are listening to Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom. It is one of the best books written ever and hearing it the second time is even better.
I am falling back in love with Christian I miss him alot and come to the verge of tears when I hear our songs. I've talked to him twice today and each time I feel happier and happier. I told him about Bay To Breakers and we're going to try and join the "nude group." He sounded so excited. I found out today that what Christian was talking about in the Hospital, "Do you remember anything I said to you last night?" I hadn't because of the pain killers that made me doze off. My mom told me today he had spilled his heart out to me. I had no idea that was what he meant when he asked if I remembered our conversation. He told me he was talking to me for a good half an hour when I started snoring. The reason he was talking to me was because my eyes were open. Apparently I had fallen asleep with my eyes open. Now I feel horrible for not being able to hear what he had to say. But like my mom said today: "You wouldn't have wanted to hear it, you were so fed up with him, didn't want anything to do with him and you were in love with Brian." This is true. But still, I can't beleive I missed hearing him spill his heart out to me. I know he loves me but he has never been able to express it like "spilling my heart out." I wish I could have been "present" so to speak. I asked him why he loved me at Taco Bell about a month ago and he said he just couldn't explain it, I was still at that time pretty fed up and so I just shrugged my shoulders and said "Alright then" and walked back into Taco Bell. I felt as though if he still couldn't tell me there was nothing to tell at all. Now I wish more than ever, now that I know he is actually capable of "spilling his heart out" I could have heard and not been so frusterated with the situation.
We're staying the night in Weed because the car was smoking hella about a half an hour ago. This guy in the super mkt was following me all around and staring me
down. Creeped me the hell out, I don't think I've ever been THAT scared of a way a person looked at me. Had I been alone I don't know what I would have done. I am sure
he would have kidnapped me. We are listening to Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom. It is one of the best books written ever and hearing it the second time is even better.
I am falling back in love with Christian I miss him alot and come to the verge of tears when I hear our songs. I've talked to him twice today and each time I feel happier and happier. I told him about Bay To Breakers and we're going to try and join the "nude group." He sounded so excited. I found out today that what Christian was talking about in the Hospital, "Do you remember anything I said to you last night?" I hadn't because of the pain killers that made me doze off. My mom told me today he had spilled his heart out to me. I had no idea that was what he meant when he asked if I remembered our conversation. He told me he was talking to me for a good half an hour when I started snoring. The reason he was talking to me was because my eyes were open. Apparently I had fallen asleep with my eyes open. Now I feel horrible for not being able to hear what he had to say. But like my mom said today: "You wouldn't have wanted to hear it, you were so fed up with him, didn't want anything to do with him and you were in love with Brian." This is true. But still, I can't beleive I missed hearing him spill his heart out to me. I know he loves me but he has never been able to express it like "spilling my heart out." I wish I could have been "present" so to speak. I asked him why he loved me at Taco Bell about a month ago and he said he just couldn't explain it, I was still at that time pretty fed up and so I just shrugged my shoulders and said "Alright then" and walked back into Taco Bell. I felt as though if he still couldn't tell me there was nothing to tell at all. Now I wish more than ever, now that I know he is actually capable of "spilling his heart out" I could have heard and not been so frusterated with the situation.