rip pat
i cant even think of the right words to describe how i feel on the situation. i sit and think about the last time i saw pat, and it makes me so happy because he was such a nice, funny, happy guy who could make any event that much better. me, him and jess were at the main street bar at rowan in april and sat there for like two or three hours and talked and drank. it was like every time he showed up somewhere, you were guaranteed to laugh your ass off and have a good time. it's just sad to think that those moments are never going to happen again. i felt like it was taken for granted.
pat loved jazz music, and i remember one time we were in my car and nick c. was in the front seat and pat reached up and changed the radio station to jazz and i was like ahhh wanting to rip my hair out... but i would listen to jazz for a million hours straight if it would bring him back.
i remember hanging out at nicks house in high school just laughing my ass off at some of the conversations going on between pat and whoever was there. i remember sitting in the backseat of his car driving with all the windows down and trying not to throw up because pat had forgotten to put the windows up the night before and rain had made his seats smell like dead animals, but i didn't care because i was having one of the funnest moments of my life with my friends.
at the funeral, his dad asked me who i was and how i knew pat and then he said to me, "i want to meet everyone whose lives he touched" and i just lost it. he definitely touched at lot of lives probably without even realizing it.
i'm having a hard time grasping the concept that he's never going to randomly show up at my parties anymore. i won't run into him at a bar anymore. he's not going to brighten up someone's day with the quick puns that he seems to pull out of nowhere.
but i also feel kind of calm about the whole thing. i know that pat is watching over everyone of the lives that he touched and he's always going to be with us in our hearts and minds. i know that if i'm having a shitty day, i can just think back to a memory of him and i know it will cheer me up... there was definitely never a dull moment when he was around.
rip pat... you were one of the nicest, funniest people i have ever known throughout my life so far, and i may not have seen you that much since everything that happened in high school and growing up and moving on and stuff, but you're going to be missed a thousand times more than you were seen.
pat loved jazz music, and i remember one time we were in my car and nick c. was in the front seat and pat reached up and changed the radio station to jazz and i was like ahhh wanting to rip my hair out... but i would listen to jazz for a million hours straight if it would bring him back.
i remember hanging out at nicks house in high school just laughing my ass off at some of the conversations going on between pat and whoever was there. i remember sitting in the backseat of his car driving with all the windows down and trying not to throw up because pat had forgotten to put the windows up the night before and rain had made his seats smell like dead animals, but i didn't care because i was having one of the funnest moments of my life with my friends.
at the funeral, his dad asked me who i was and how i knew pat and then he said to me, "i want to meet everyone whose lives he touched" and i just lost it. he definitely touched at lot of lives probably without even realizing it.
i'm having a hard time grasping the concept that he's never going to randomly show up at my parties anymore. i won't run into him at a bar anymore. he's not going to brighten up someone's day with the quick puns that he seems to pull out of nowhere.
but i also feel kind of calm about the whole thing. i know that pat is watching over everyone of the lives that he touched and he's always going to be with us in our hearts and minds. i know that if i'm having a shitty day, i can just think back to a memory of him and i know it will cheer me up... there was definitely never a dull moment when he was around.
rip pat... you were one of the nicest, funniest people i have ever known throughout my life so far, and i may not have seen you that much since everything that happened in high school and growing up and moving on and stuff, but you're going to be missed a thousand times more than you were seen.