#3

[ihaverealissues]

I know that we all have bigger fish to fry. And I know that Quidditch should be the least of my problems. Yet how is it that I'm gutted, absolutely gutted, that Gryffindor won't retain the Quidditch Cup this year?

Oh well, better go ahead and be gracious at any rate. As much as I can be anyway.Congratulations to Ravenclaw on your Quidditch win. So

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Private to Hermione

[ihaverealissues]

I've been keeping safe. There's really not much else to do here. I almost wish something would happen, just because it means I'd be making progress. I just feel like a spider that's cast out all its webs and I'm waiting for something to get stuck in one, but nothing has!

And I can't shake the feeling that this wasn't what Dumbledore wanted me to do. Well, he did want me to look for horcruxes, I'm sure of that, and McGonagall and the rest of the Order wouldn't be helping me if he hadn't of wanted that, but what if I'm going about it the wrong way?

I'm so happy you're with me, Hermione. Well, you're not with me, but you're helping me. Dumbledore and Sirius aren't around anymore and I hate to even think this but with Ron do you feel like he's not taking this very seriously? Hard to tell over the journals, but he seems to be talking about leaving school and hunting horcruxes with me as if it's some sort of field day, but it's not. Maybe he's just frustrated at being stuck in school and is relieved to have the chance to finally do something. but if he really isn't being realistic about things, then it would be sort of irresponsible for me to have him with me, don't you think? I mean, he could do something stupid because he isn't as aware of things and I don't want to have to go to the Burrow and tell Mrs Weasley that her youngest son is dead.

Er, I don't think I should have said that. Now she'll worry, and it's close to NEWTs as it is. I have Hermione, but I wonder who she has? I know what it's like to have everyone counting on you, and I don't want to add to her feeling that way or anything.

Private to Harry

[booksandquills]

I know... I know how frustrating it is, to have tried every avenue, and to feel alone and, well... at a dead end.

I can't pretend to know what Dumbledore's intentions were, but for what it's worth, Harry, I am proud of you, and will be with you every step of the way, and help you in any way I can, no matter what. I am happy that you're keeping in better contact now even though in a strange way it worries me MORE to hear from you and to know that that horcrux is still out there somewhere, and... well, we'll see what we can come up with together, all right?

I know what you mean about Ron, and it's horrible, and it makes me feel so wretched sometimes, because there are times when I wonder if he takes ANYTHING seriously any more. Has he really lost perspective of things so much because for the most part, things have been going quite smoothly this year despite Dumbledore's death? I can't even imagine what it's like to be in your position, but even from mine, it's impossible not to grasp the seriousness of the issue. But also, Harry, if it came down to that, we are your friends by OUR choices, and while you may want to protect us, that's neither always within your power, nor within your choice. And for you, and for the greater good of wizardkind, we're willing to take whatever risks are necessary. You should know that bad things may potentially happen, but it's not going to be your fault nearly as much as you tend to think. That being said, from the way Ron seems to view these things, I do hope that he'll not be put in the thick of it. He really worries me sometimes, and I don't even know how to get through to him any more, because when I try, I don't think he listens at all.

Oh, Harry, what will we do, the two of us? We both have far too many people depending on us.