Something's wrong with me...
Today I didn't feel good at all. I felt sad... really sad. Wendy had a talk with me and I kinda got a lot out, and she also talked to me a little. Gave me some things to think about. But I told her that I didn't want to go into the army because I just really don't but my dad is practically making me. Then there's my past and how I can't change it. And I just really wish I didn't make so many stupid mistakes. Then there's the fact that I feel so lonely all the time. I really want a relationship. Someone that I can give my love to. However, there's no one I want to do that for so I guess it's kinda hard to do that. But there are a few other things. I'd rather not say though... I don't know why, but I really don't. Even if no one reads this. Except for Keely. Maybe... Idk. I'm scared... about a lot of things. Killing myself is one. I keep thinking about jumping off a building or something. I almost did it once... And today, I couldn't stop crying at work. It was horrible. I don't know what happened. It just came outta no where yesterday. I don't know... I don't feel like writing anymore... bye.