Yep
So here I am, in Tennessee... boring old TN. I can't stand it but I guess I'd rather be here than GA or anywhere for that matter. The only thing is, I'm always at home with nothing to do. I don't have a job, I don't have a car, money, friends, or anything worth living for. I'm just a fucking bum. Some things I can't stand. People want to help me when I know I am beyond help. And I kinda like it that way. I know I'm not going to make any sense right now because I don't wanna make sense. I still have that thirst for drugs of all sorts and have had dreams about them almost every night. I still hunger for a particular someone who I shouldn't have feelings for in the first place. I want a boyfriend. I feel almost desperate. But then again, I'm afraid. Of what? Getting hurt, hurting them, messing up my life... I think what I need is a really good friend I can talk to. Someone that I don't ever feel uncomfortable around. People say life always gets better. For me, it's progressively getting worse. I had to deal with my parents' divorce, then living without so many things that most people never have to worry about losing, then moving to someplace I don't have any friends. I've done some really stupid things while I've been here. I've made a fool out of myself. I've got problems. Too many for myself to understand. I really need a hug...