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*loud speaker* Stephanie has returned to the building! I repeat, Stephanie has returned to the building.
That's right kids, I'm back. But it's actually me again. Seriously...I've just...snapped back to reality. I noticed it today. I'm back. The fun, crazy, hyperactive, I LOVE YOU GUYS KISS KISS HUG HUG, grope-irific, almost no care in the world me. And I realized it today. When around my drama friends, I was always like that. But around the others, I had changed. I became someone else. I became everything I hated in a person.
But now, I'm me around everyone. Drama kids, old friends, the "original" group, people who don't like me, people I don't like...anyone and everyone.
Example - today in lunch, Jose and Nick would glare at me. Nick was sitting by Sharayah and Erich, and Erich wanted me to go sit by him, so I did. And usually, seeing Nick there, I would have gone and sat by Erica and Ariel K. But no. I went over and sat there. And he sat and pouted and glared the whole time, but I sat there and had a great time. I laughed with Stacie, flirted with Erich, talked to Nick F (Precious), joked around with Sharayah...and didn't pay any attention to Nick L or Jose.
Or when I went with Darlene to Bryans and Ariel Ls. I was back to how I always am...running up to people, hugging them, kissing them, telling them I loved them, giggling, being stupid. All that fun stuff. I was happy. Genuinely happy. I am me.
And I love the feeling. So much.
And I'm leaving this one public too, so anyone can see it. Because this is who I truly am, and this is the Stephanie that all of my friends had grown to love....and I'm back.
That's right kids, I'm back. But it's actually me again. Seriously...I've just...snapped back to reality. I noticed it today. I'm back. The fun, crazy, hyperactive, I LOVE YOU GUYS KISS KISS HUG HUG, grope-irific, almost no care in the world me. And I realized it today. When around my drama friends, I was always like that. But around the others, I had changed. I became someone else. I became everything I hated in a person.
But now, I'm me around everyone. Drama kids, old friends, the "original" group, people who don't like me, people I don't like...anyone and everyone.
Example - today in lunch, Jose and Nick would glare at me. Nick was sitting by Sharayah and Erich, and Erich wanted me to go sit by him, so I did. And usually, seeing Nick there, I would have gone and sat by Erica and Ariel K. But no. I went over and sat there. And he sat and pouted and glared the whole time, but I sat there and had a great time. I laughed with Stacie, flirted with Erich, talked to Nick F (Precious), joked around with Sharayah...and didn't pay any attention to Nick L or Jose.
Or when I went with Darlene to Bryans and Ariel Ls. I was back to how I always am...running up to people, hugging them, kissing them, telling them I loved them, giggling, being stupid. All that fun stuff. I was happy. Genuinely happy. I am me.
And I love the feeling. So much.
And I'm leaving this one public too, so anyone can see it. Because this is who I truly am, and this is the Stephanie that all of my friends had grown to love....and I'm back.