even if i try i cant leave
its sunday and i have spent the weekend at miss licorice house as usual....i have seen alot of kams lately and its almost too much...i love kams but she is too wrapped up in living in my pocket....she costs a fortune :( so friday i took mini me over to licorice and it was cool she settled well and didnt wake thru the night it was lovely and homely.... licorice had work every day this weekend so i was alone alot and missed her alot but we had awsome sex on friday night and i felt quite confident ..... well sort of .... after i wasnt sure if i did everything ok?? im still learning about it all.... sat evening we stayed in and ate a curry it was as always lovely....she is an amazing cook. sunday morning she kissed my forehead and went off to work and i spent the day alone....again...missing her....i spoke to a friend about how i have been feeling towards licorice lately....the feelings of worry and not coping with the constant petty arguments over the smallist of things....everyone around me wants me to be happy and say im not happy around licorice and that she is destroying me....i see the change in myself but im just not sure i care....i simply love her, even when she is mean to me even when she is on my back and even tho i cry most days because of how she treats me....i love her and after all she is my first girl...my first love almost. i think im going to keep going...and live for the short sweet moments we have as few and far between a they are they make up for all the heart break and tears. am i mug? yes probbaly but im in love and love makes you stupid!!!