Where is my head, where are my bones? Please save me from myself...
I have a lot on my mind...too much maybe. I don't know how most people can handle so many thoughts -- emotions -- by themselves. Growing up is hard to do and it sucks. The only positives are him and being out on my own so I can make my own decisions. The decision making is hard though, because it affects my future and the others that surround me as well. But right now, I'm not liking the things I see or the things I hear. Or how I sometimes feel. In order to suppress my rage, I'm going in to a deep cold to block out the burns so I won't become engulfed in the flames and disappear in grief and sorrow.
But him. He makes me so happy...what if I accidently go crazy when I feel the way I naturally feel around him and then put on a mask for others, so they can keep their tongues blunt and not speak about things they shouldn't.
What I guess I'm trying to say is, I've been out of high school for almost 2 years now. It's time to REALLY grow up, no more adolescent bullshit. I'm done with it. You won't like it when the mask falls off, because it will shatter and I won't be able to put it back on again.
But him. He makes me so happy...what if I accidently go crazy when I feel the way I naturally feel around him and then put on a mask for others, so they can keep their tongues blunt and not speak about things they shouldn't.
What I guess I'm trying to say is, I've been out of high school for almost 2 years now. It's time to REALLY grow up, no more adolescent bullshit. I'm done with it. You won't like it when the mask falls off, because it will shatter and I won't be able to put it back on again.