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Boy, my dream this morning was just... odd for a lack of better word. Shows that watching on TV does play an effect in your dreams, which I do not normally experiance. The first part was that I was working at some kind of childern's clinic, with House of all people. There was some kind of doll we used that the child would hug and it would be able to tell us what, if anything, was wrong with the child. Well, both of us were standing there listening and the doll spoke in this, innocent voice something about sex. I cannot remember what exactly it said. It was very faint sounding and I could see House bending over trying to make sure he heard right. Then these people come in and tell us we are being shut down, due to being investigated for sexual things going on with the childern.
Then the dream switches to a completely different dream. I am somewhere and I am asked sing with who I can identify as Delana from Rockstar:Supernova. I remeber thinking that I cannot possibly sing, I get out of tune and all of that. Well then I find myself with my flute having to play those horrible high notes that till this day I cannot remember the fingering to.
Yeah talk about some strange dreams that had people from the show I was watching last night in them. What is even odder is that both Tommy Lee and Hugh Laurie were on Ellen yesterday. So something is up with those two shows and my inner thoughts. I guess I could look up their meanings, but they are just odd dreams and nothing that speaks to me really. I know that I am not really going to do anything to get into trouble with childern and sexual things. Come on now remember that dreaming about sex does not mean you want to have sex. Basic pyschology people, read for pete's sake. Though I can honestly say that I am being amused by my dreams lately.
I kind of hate it, when I talk to someone, normally a guy, when they ask me how long it has been since I have dated or been in the relationship, they give me aw as a response. Yes, I guess it is sad that it has been about 2 years since either, but do you see me wollowing in self-pity or being needy? Well you better not because I am not like that. In all honestly I really did not need to be in a relationship those last two year, I needed the time to fix myself and my problems. Being in relationships help put me into the destructive path I was taking. So I am not at all sorry that I was not dating. Maybe for not going out with friends or something I could say that I needed that, but not with dating. Hell, maybe if I did meet someone during that time they could of help me, but that would be horrible.
How did this all come out? Well I was chatting last night with a guy who contacted me on yahoo personals (yeah I know it sucks, but so do all the other ones).I have not talked with him much, but it is nice to talk with someone I do not know already. I think I swore off meeting guys from the net after the disaster with Chris, but I cannot remember. Plus, I am on this giving things a second look and not being so judgemental personality. Relooking at things I thought about only in on way and realized that I could miss something important or miss out on something. Which reminds me I need to cancle my account with True.com. Not only am I not satified with it, I am paying for it. I can honestly tell you that I have guys contacting me who should not be or just have not read what I marked on there. When I say I do not want to date someone who has a kid I mean it. Even worse when the guy sends you an e-mail about how they do not date because of women leaving once his daughter got attacthed. Hello, good reason why I put does not have kids as a requirement. I am not going to be a second mom to a child, I am not ready to play the role for anyone. Any of this sound like a good reason why I have always disliked my brother and stacy being together?
Know what, my thinking in all of this guy stuff is that I am planning on moving out of state and I reall do not need to get attached to anyone while living here. If I do I can see myself rethinking the move and I really do not want to be in that situation. It is easier to wait until I have move and I have less to worry about because I would plan to stay there for at least 4 years if not more. All depends where I go. Plus the guys I have been talking to all seem to want to stay in Arizona.
I need to call Massage Envy to set up an appointment to use that gift certificate that I got from Christmas. After my run on Monday my back has been hurting like it use to.I think it is due to poor posture while running. Only way I can explain it. Maybe this will help me out and need to have done more often. Might be good since I am waiting to hear when an indoor soccer team starts. Not sure when that will be, but do I need to get my ass in shape. It is mostly my lungs that need it. My legs will carry me just find, my lungs want to quite within five minutes after starting.
Math is going ok for right now, despite the low scores, I feel like I am getting everything, but cannot show that on the homework we turn in and the tests. I guess we will get another homework assignment to turn in and that will tell me if I am doing on still, or just in denial. In which case I need to go to Dr. Panye's office and see if he can help me. I have to start seeing my professors when I notice trouble. I have yet to do that except to talk to them when I needed their signature to drop classes for the spring of 2003 while at UA.
Then the dream switches to a completely different dream. I am somewhere and I am asked sing with who I can identify as Delana from Rockstar:Supernova. I remeber thinking that I cannot possibly sing, I get out of tune and all of that. Well then I find myself with my flute having to play those horrible high notes that till this day I cannot remember the fingering to.
Yeah talk about some strange dreams that had people from the show I was watching last night in them. What is even odder is that both Tommy Lee and Hugh Laurie were on Ellen yesterday. So something is up with those two shows and my inner thoughts. I guess I could look up their meanings, but they are just odd dreams and nothing that speaks to me really. I know that I am not really going to do anything to get into trouble with childern and sexual things. Come on now remember that dreaming about sex does not mean you want to have sex. Basic pyschology people, read for pete's sake. Though I can honestly say that I am being amused by my dreams lately.
I kind of hate it, when I talk to someone, normally a guy, when they ask me how long it has been since I have dated or been in the relationship, they give me aw as a response. Yes, I guess it is sad that it has been about 2 years since either, but do you see me wollowing in self-pity or being needy? Well you better not because I am not like that. In all honestly I really did not need to be in a relationship those last two year, I needed the time to fix myself and my problems. Being in relationships help put me into the destructive path I was taking. So I am not at all sorry that I was not dating. Maybe for not going out with friends or something I could say that I needed that, but not with dating. Hell, maybe if I did meet someone during that time they could of help me, but that would be horrible.
How did this all come out? Well I was chatting last night with a guy who contacted me on yahoo personals (yeah I know it sucks, but so do all the other ones).I have not talked with him much, but it is nice to talk with someone I do not know already. I think I swore off meeting guys from the net after the disaster with Chris, but I cannot remember. Plus, I am on this giving things a second look and not being so judgemental personality. Relooking at things I thought about only in on way and realized that I could miss something important or miss out on something. Which reminds me I need to cancle my account with True.com. Not only am I not satified with it, I am paying for it. I can honestly tell you that I have guys contacting me who should not be or just have not read what I marked on there. When I say I do not want to date someone who has a kid I mean it. Even worse when the guy sends you an e-mail about how they do not date because of women leaving once his daughter got attacthed. Hello, good reason why I put does not have kids as a requirement. I am not going to be a second mom to a child, I am not ready to play the role for anyone. Any of this sound like a good reason why I have always disliked my brother and stacy being together?
Know what, my thinking in all of this guy stuff is that I am planning on moving out of state and I reall do not need to get attached to anyone while living here. If I do I can see myself rethinking the move and I really do not want to be in that situation. It is easier to wait until I have move and I have less to worry about because I would plan to stay there for at least 4 years if not more. All depends where I go. Plus the guys I have been talking to all seem to want to stay in Arizona.
I need to call Massage Envy to set up an appointment to use that gift certificate that I got from Christmas. After my run on Monday my back has been hurting like it use to.I think it is due to poor posture while running. Only way I can explain it. Maybe this will help me out and need to have done more often. Might be good since I am waiting to hear when an indoor soccer team starts. Not sure when that will be, but do I need to get my ass in shape. It is mostly my lungs that need it. My legs will carry me just find, my lungs want to quite within five minutes after starting.
Math is going ok for right now, despite the low scores, I feel like I am getting everything, but cannot show that on the homework we turn in and the tests. I guess we will get another homework assignment to turn in and that will tell me if I am doing on still, or just in denial. In which case I need to go to Dr. Panye's office and see if he can help me. I have to start seeing my professors when I notice trouble. I have yet to do that except to talk to them when I needed their signature to drop classes for the spring of 2003 while at UA.