missing
So tonight, I miss corey, yes my dog. Well how would you even say it - he was my dog, before he died. Like I miss him a lot, and I wonder if thats natural to miss an animal that much, but yes I think it is, he was my friend. And tonight I miss him more than usual. I want a dog so badly, a small one. I want a pet and a friend who I can love and can love me unconditionally. I want a dog to take care of and snuggle and not have to worry about saying stupid things in front of it or not being myself, something that no matter what will be excited to see me, and I dont have to worry about fights or talking back, and I would take care of it and love it and it would be mine. I know my grandma misses taylor really bad too and i know she wants another dog, but she says she can'y go through losing one again, she's had dogs her whle life, and also that she doesnt think shes home enough to take care of it, which isnt true, shes home all the time. So I miss corey bad, napping with him, helping him up the stairs when he couldnt anymore and the games he used to play with Shiloh's food. Thats another thing I miss about home, they have Shiloh and now pe - pe and he doesnt even know me as a part of the household. sigh. I find myself drawing corey in doodles. I need to find a good picture of him and actually sketch it. SO this week started out really crappy but not that bad, tonight watching the O.C and relaxing was fun. TOmorrow is homework day. booo, ah well it needs to be done. I've been really upset about my appearance latley, I'm neer happy about how I look really. Oh well, tomorrow starts everyday of the gym cont'd, i didnt go today because of obvious reasons but i went saturday too so sunday and monday can kinda be liek my weekend. I miss Dave, i wish he was up here. I can't wait for summer, and warm nights. "I just wanna be happy like when I'm with, I just wanna hear you tell em that we'll make it through." I Can't wait to see him, I hope this week flys by like last week did, but not the weekend - it went by in a blink. Well I'm going to sleep I guess, if not I'll read - I feel good that I'm reading for fun again, I just have to make sure i stay on top of my school homewrok reading too - i'll do that tomorrow. (side note) I wish everyone got me and i wouldnt have to try.