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[ihaveboycooties]

ok so im kind of really upset with myself
cause i had gone so long and then i broke down and it happened again
i don't know what to do
it made me feel so much better
if you don't know what I am talking about I am not going to tell you, but do not make stupid assumptions
if you know me and know my past then you should know what I am talking about
And now i sit awake at 3:30 am waiting for fucking dave to call me back about Nicole
I don't know what is up with her. I am so worried
it kills me inside
part of me doesn't even wanna know
But if I don;t know then it'll kill me
and if i find out, there a chance that i might blame myself
and neither one is good
all i can hope is that she is ok
then i am fine
i need to sleep
but i ahve class at 11 tomorrow
ahhhhhh
why won;t that fucker call me
but then again, he'll call and then i'll be awake later talking to him
i miss him
o well
i miss having someone to talk to and that listens and actually cares about my stupid problems

i wish i coudl disappear

20 minutes left

this iss how i procrastinate
yes!

ok im done

goodnight
not for me im awake for another 20 minutes
but maybe for you
but then again I don;t know when you will eb reading this
hmmm

o well

goodbye

<3