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I feel like my parents and I have completely different relationships than 10 months ago. I mean obviously they have changed since they have split apart but I feel like I'm more of a friend than a daughter to either of them. Each will call me up when dealing with something difficult pretty much to vent and it seems for the most part not to be reciprocated.
I wish I had better relationships with my friends. I feel like most of the friends I have, I see on occasion and I'm sure I'm mostly annoying to them. I can't figure out how to be myself. I'm kind of clumsy, and awkward.
This school year has been terrible for me. I find it hard to really place my attention on anything for very long. When I do, I start to get kind of depressed because I think more about issues in my life than what I'm supposed to be studying. Soo yeah, secrets out I'm a bad student.
I want a place that feels like home again. I have my own apartment with nicole but I want something with noise and (good)smells and sound. I have no idea what that means.
I miss being missed.
I get my braces off in 8 days.
I'm sorry I'm rambling without reason. I mostly feel lonely, and it would be nice to have a nice boy to go on a date with. I guess that is what I think will fix my loneliness, meeting someone and building my own family someday to suppress the feelings of my broken one. bad idea.
I wish I had better relationships with my friends. I feel like most of the friends I have, I see on occasion and I'm sure I'm mostly annoying to them. I can't figure out how to be myself. I'm kind of clumsy, and awkward.
This school year has been terrible for me. I find it hard to really place my attention on anything for very long. When I do, I start to get kind of depressed because I think more about issues in my life than what I'm supposed to be studying. Soo yeah, secrets out I'm a bad student.
I want a place that feels like home again. I have my own apartment with nicole but I want something with noise and (good)smells and sound. I have no idea what that means.
I miss being missed.
I get my braces off in 8 days.
I'm sorry I'm rambling without reason. I mostly feel lonely, and it would be nice to have a nice boy to go on a date with. I guess that is what I think will fix my loneliness, meeting someone and building my own family someday to suppress the feelings of my broken one. bad idea.