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yea so i hardly write up in this joint. so i'll update. all i've been doing is going to school and then to work. working out. trying to diet. been with pD. same routine over and over and over. it gets kind of boring and sickening with the whole school and work part. i fucking hate school. i am at pD's house right now. got out at 130 and then i'm going to his game in a little while. i'm at his house by myself. kind of..weirddddd. yea i haven't heard from sam. at all. she blew me off. never called. probably won't even see her before she goes back to florida. i got all excited over nothing.
all i ever do is get my hopes up. over and over. you'd think i'd learn my lesson that good things usually don't happen to me. its so hard to be happy sometimes. i just want to be truly happy and not have to fake it sometimes. theres just something missing and i've been waiting for whatever it is for so long and to know what the hell it is that i need. its just a confusing mess. i've just been doing what i have to do and trying...trying..not to complain. but i just get so sick of the same shit lately.
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all i ever do is get my hopes up. over and over. you'd think i'd learn my lesson that good things usually don't happen to me. its so hard to be happy sometimes. i just want to be truly happy and not have to fake it sometimes. theres just something missing and i've been waiting for whatever it is for so long and to know what the hell it is that i need. its just a confusing mess. i've just been doing what i have to do and trying...trying..not to complain. but i just get so sick of the same shit lately.
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