well screw my last entry
thats gay. of course im gonna keep writing. im gonna write my lil heart out. jus leave me alone :( haha. i been thinkin bout ricker a lot lately. we had a fall out last night. i dunno if he's ever even gonna talk to me again. but im tired of begging him to talk to me...so i jus hope he'll come around and talk to me if he wants. i mean yeah kissed someone. big deal. i wouldnt mind if he wanted to jus go off n have wild passionate sex with someone if he would jus friggin talk to me again. anyways thats not the point. i made amistake. i hurt him...(im guessin..we never really established how we were feelin. well he didnt anyways..) but im sorry. it was a one time thing. didnt know i liked him this much though : / im a lot more sad over it than i thought i would be. hmm...o well. maybe he'll forgive me one day. im notgonna worry bout it anymore. i got enouph shit to deal with. mom came to the house today. she was goin through shit to see what she wanted to bring to her new apartment.. andthen she wanted me to fuckin help her load her damn car.haha. i was so pissed off i walked over to rachel's. and thas where i am now.. welp. i guess im gonna wrap this one up. later guys.