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its sad. i am no longer the extremly happy life-loving person that i once was. i hav been sick for a while and when i dont feel well treat my friends like sh*t. for example, when my best friend did amazing on a project and i did miserably i did not say "congrats" or "omg ur amazing" but i said "i had [insert class here]" and once the bell rang i stomped out of class. sweet. i m such a good person! i had how easily i get jealous of my friends. i mean i m not supportive at all. one of my best friends from soph. year gets into the exchange program and i didnt. and i didnt even tell her how much fun she would have. im really gettin on my own last nerves. the one person that i have maintained "best friends" with since freshman year now i never see her, or talk to her, or write her notes. its really sad. i know it sounds odd but i m not even sure if she likes being around me anymore. its hard seeing a friend cry, and i made one cry at lunch last week, and another almost cry this weekend. y do people even befriend me? like seriously?
on a lighter note:
i have decided to be less awkward and start hanging out with a variety of people instead of the same like 7ish friends. like when m and i went to the ZONE (hellll ya) with c,k,b,e that was sooo funn and i didnt hav to worry about impressing them (prob because we all looked rediculous) but also i didnt feel like they were judging me cuz i m the "stupid one" or the "loud attention seeking one" but we all just wanted to hav fun. and i love that.
i will post some of the pics from that night someother time... they r hilarious!
OH and on friday i got to see a/t and a/g AND a/g's bf at hte fb game... follow that? haha! which was awkward cuz m/o and i r always awkward... especially together. hahaah.
omg. my brother has had 3 write ups for alc. party-ing. uh oh. like one more and he is out of the dorm. haha. ohhh my alc.lic brother. black cherry runs in the famdamily.
well je t'adore.
<3 a/z
on a lighter note:
i have decided to be less awkward and start hanging out with a variety of people instead of the same like 7ish friends. like when m and i went to the ZONE (hellll ya) with c,k,b,e that was sooo funn and i didnt hav to worry about impressing them (prob because we all looked rediculous) but also i didnt feel like they were judging me cuz i m the "stupid one" or the "loud attention seeking one" but we all just wanted to hav fun. and i love that.
i will post some of the pics from that night someother time... they r hilarious!
OH and on friday i got to see a/t and a/g AND a/g's bf at hte fb game... follow that? haha! which was awkward cuz m/o and i r always awkward... especially together. hahaah.
omg. my brother has had 3 write ups for alc. party-ing. uh oh. like one more and he is out of the dorm. haha. ohhh my alc.lic brother. black cherry runs in the famdamily.
well je t'adore.
<3 a/z