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[ihatewetsox]

i'm tired of this scene, i need change. life has become more annoying than anything else. well, not like i want to die or anything, i've just been extremly annoyed a lot lately. i wish my life was worry free and i could just do what i want. i feel like i have so much responsibility and i work so hard with a lot of things and i'm not getting anywhere with anything i work hard on. idk if that makes sense. i study hard and get bad grades, i go to work all the way in ithaca so i can help out work at home and not have to keep re-applying and stuff and i get shitty pay and im treated terribly at the job in ithaca, i give up my "college" life so i can wake up at like 7am on saturday and sunday mornings to go to work and it's just not even worth it, i try to get points across to people and they don't get it, i try to just idk...it's frustrating. on the bright side, i'm starting to understand someone's feelings from past happenings by the actions of someone else to me...idk if that makes sense either.

and i'm sorry when i just feel like being alone and w/e...no need to get mad at me. sorry i try to study and i want to be alone...