.here.it.comes.again.
had community service today. also, i got a sunburn again and this rediculous farmers tan on my arms. crissy was there, so it wasn't all that bad, but we got stuck with judy today and let me tell you... never again. that is THE crabbiest woman alive. and i'm not gonna lie, all of this stuff is starting to stress me out since i'm also worrying about school and working my ass off until january. and having a job.
no matter how much i sleep anymore, i just stay tired!
so after community service i argued with my dad for a few. (that, by the way, is stressing me out too. very much). heh, maybe i have anxiety. because i's not even like i've been depressed... actually, i've been really happy lately :)
now that things are straightened out between rob and i, it's starting to change a little. i think, for the better. but you k.ow, shit, i am happy just being friends with him no matter how things end up. as long as i have him in my life again, it isn't gonna go down between us like it has in the past where we just quit talking for no reason, and then become friends again, then quit talking again. he is like my best friend and i <3 him.
oooooo, i am a dork.
i'm not completely happy, yet. one more thing. ok, 2. i don't like the feeling of dealing with little girl drama. i haven't had to deal with shit like this is a long time, and it frickin sucks. i mean, it's not even that we argue. we just don't get along. the first one is kind of stupid, but the second, i think i have my reasons.
rene, i know it was lame to have said that while julie was on the phone with you and i apologize, but i just thought it was really rude that you told one of my best friends' mom something like that. ok, i fucked up. it was at least a good 6 months ago. so maybe i didn't completely learn my lesson but you didn't seem to have a problem with it when you were going somewhere with us to drink. and, i really frickin hope it wasn't about julie and jenny going out to that party with me, because you were invited too. you were MORE than welcome to come, that is why i invited you myself. it doesn't bother me anymore because me and their mom are tight again, but i just don't understand why you thought it was your place to say something. about that OR about when me and julie went down the street that night. but besides all that, i think it is really dumb that when we are in the same house we are in separate rooms and crazy shit like that. it's little kid shit, ya know. there's no reason to be gay about it anymore, what's done is done and we're too old to be involved in shit like this. so, sorry. and i hope you understand why i was pissed.
brittany, i'm not really sure what i'm supposed to say. you said, well, yeah, i thought we were tight, but what the hell. i thought we were too, until you went and did that. i really didn't appreciate it when you said to someone that you're not hanging out because you don't get along with me, or whatever was said. honestly, i should've been the one saying that, but i didn't. i never really said anything about it except when i found out. but, i was a little hurt, ya know. whether we were real tight or not, we still considered each other friends, and i just think that that is the one thing you don't do to a "friend". especially when you knew the situation. i don't care about this anymore either because like i said, what's done is done. things with he and i are fine, so i don't have a reason to be mad about it. but i hope you understand why i WAS, too.
i feel tons better now. and girls, don't get mad about what i just said. i don't mean it in a mean way at all. i'm just trying to settle this dumb stuff.i love ya guys, even though you are shitheads.
i smoked too many cigarettes tonight.
jeez... it's already 4:00. i have to be at community service in about 3 1/2 hours. oh well... it will be one more day done. maybe tomorrow i'll update about the past few days. wooo... i gotta get some sleep.
i'm lovin this :)
no matter how much i sleep anymore, i just stay tired!
so after community service i argued with my dad for a few. (that, by the way, is stressing me out too. very much). heh, maybe i have anxiety. because i's not even like i've been depressed... actually, i've been really happy lately :)
now that things are straightened out between rob and i, it's starting to change a little. i think, for the better. but you k.ow, shit, i am happy just being friends with him no matter how things end up. as long as i have him in my life again, it isn't gonna go down between us like it has in the past where we just quit talking for no reason, and then become friends again, then quit talking again. he is like my best friend and i <3 him.
oooooo, i am a dork.
i'm not completely happy, yet. one more thing. ok, 2. i don't like the feeling of dealing with little girl drama. i haven't had to deal with shit like this is a long time, and it frickin sucks. i mean, it's not even that we argue. we just don't get along. the first one is kind of stupid, but the second, i think i have my reasons.
rene, i know it was lame to have said that while julie was on the phone with you and i apologize, but i just thought it was really rude that you told one of my best friends' mom something like that. ok, i fucked up. it was at least a good 6 months ago. so maybe i didn't completely learn my lesson but you didn't seem to have a problem with it when you were going somewhere with us to drink. and, i really frickin hope it wasn't about julie and jenny going out to that party with me, because you were invited too. you were MORE than welcome to come, that is why i invited you myself. it doesn't bother me anymore because me and their mom are tight again, but i just don't understand why you thought it was your place to say something. about that OR about when me and julie went down the street that night. but besides all that, i think it is really dumb that when we are in the same house we are in separate rooms and crazy shit like that. it's little kid shit, ya know. there's no reason to be gay about it anymore, what's done is done and we're too old to be involved in shit like this. so, sorry. and i hope you understand why i was pissed.
brittany, i'm not really sure what i'm supposed to say. you said, well, yeah, i thought we were tight, but what the hell. i thought we were too, until you went and did that. i really didn't appreciate it when you said to someone that you're not hanging out because you don't get along with me, or whatever was said. honestly, i should've been the one saying that, but i didn't. i never really said anything about it except when i found out. but, i was a little hurt, ya know. whether we were real tight or not, we still considered each other friends, and i just think that that is the one thing you don't do to a "friend". especially when you knew the situation. i don't care about this anymore either because like i said, what's done is done. things with he and i are fine, so i don't have a reason to be mad about it. but i hope you understand why i WAS, too.
i feel tons better now. and girls, don't get mad about what i just said. i don't mean it in a mean way at all. i'm just trying to settle this dumb stuff.i love ya guys, even though you are shitheads.
i smoked too many cigarettes tonight.
jeez... it's already 4:00. i have to be at community service in about 3 1/2 hours. oh well... it will be one more day done. maybe tomorrow i'll update about the past few days. wooo... i gotta get some sleep.
i'm lovin this :)