Identity Crisis...
Have you ever felt like you lost your identity because someone else has taken your place? Yeah, that's kinda what I've been feeling like the last few weeks. I just finally put my finger on what the problem was.
My friend Chelsea, whom I love dearly, has just recently moved downstairs to our floor. So now we're all together, all 8 of us. Perfect right? No.
I am the one who keeps their door open, I am the one whose room everyone comes to, I am the one whose room everyone meets at, I am the one whose room everyone stops by to visit, I am the funny one, I am the one with the loud music, I am the one with the GOOD music... or, I WAS that one...
Now I just feel like I don't fit in. I guess the best analogy is this. In boy bands or girl bands (like N'sync or Spice Girls, just an example!!!) each person has their "thing" that they bring to the group. Like Baby Spice, and Sporty Spice, and Posh Spice (how I know those, don't ask...). Well I used to have my place in our group of friends, but it seems as though recently that there is a new "band member" and I got kicked out.
I sit in my room a lot just thinking. Sometimes by choice, sometimes by default. I miss the real relationships from last year... Rob, Cherry, and Julie mostly. I don't seem to have those this year. Everyone comes to me with their problems and I dish out the advise and yet anytime I need to talk nobody is there. They don't come to me unless they need to talk or complain.
I just talked to Julie about spendin some time with her and Cherry sometime soon and I'll make a trip down to Rob's sometime soon here (sorry about last weekend Rob!!!). I just need to make a better effort to keep the friendships that are really going to last.
I guess that's it for now, gotta go meet Cassie for our "one-on-one weekly talk". I guess she's really the only one I talk to these days, but once a week just isn't good enough sometimes.
My friend Chelsea, whom I love dearly, has just recently moved downstairs to our floor. So now we're all together, all 8 of us. Perfect right? No.
I am the one who keeps their door open, I am the one whose room everyone comes to, I am the one whose room everyone meets at, I am the one whose room everyone stops by to visit, I am the funny one, I am the one with the loud music, I am the one with the GOOD music... or, I WAS that one...
Now I just feel like I don't fit in. I guess the best analogy is this. In boy bands or girl bands (like N'sync or Spice Girls, just an example!!!) each person has their "thing" that they bring to the group. Like Baby Spice, and Sporty Spice, and Posh Spice (how I know those, don't ask...). Well I used to have my place in our group of friends, but it seems as though recently that there is a new "band member" and I got kicked out.
I sit in my room a lot just thinking. Sometimes by choice, sometimes by default. I miss the real relationships from last year... Rob, Cherry, and Julie mostly. I don't seem to have those this year. Everyone comes to me with their problems and I dish out the advise and yet anytime I need to talk nobody is there. They don't come to me unless they need to talk or complain.
I just talked to Julie about spendin some time with her and Cherry sometime soon and I'll make a trip down to Rob's sometime soon here (sorry about last weekend Rob!!!). I just need to make a better effort to keep the friendships that are really going to last.
I guess that's it for now, gotta go meet Cassie for our "one-on-one weekly talk". I guess she's really the only one I talk to these days, but once a week just isn't good enough sometimes.