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There comes a time in your life when suddenly you realize that you've actually been fooling yourself into being happy or content with where you are in life. Or with what you're doing with your life. Or who you are romantically entangled with.
I realized very recently that for the past 1.5 years I've been extremely unhappy and oh so naïve. On the plus side, it was still a time where I was as hopeful as I ever am…hoping that someone perhaps had a caring soul when really they were the exact opposite. Everyone has their battles; whether you’re challenging yourself by teaching English in Poland, persevering in Med School or fighting with your always taught heartstrings and loneliness in Oromocto, New Brunswick, you learn so much about yourself. And always materialize as a better person...the better person. Best of all is when you realize and accept that somewhere out there is someone (at least one person) thinking about you at any given moment…about how amazing you are and how much they love you. Knowing this is what is keeping me content with everything 24/7.
I’ve made some huge life changes recently in hopes of finally finding happiness. Thank you to 3 people; 2 of whom have been there the entire way supporting me as best as anyone could ask for and know I love them very deeply. And 1 of whom I adore to no end…one I am currently head over heels for and falling for more deeply day by day. The old Scotty is back while the heartbroken, manipulated, confused, depressed and distraught Scotty is tossed away for good. You’re only as terrible as you’re manipulated into believing you are.
…I hope this letter finds you well.
I realized very recently that for the past 1.5 years I've been extremely unhappy and oh so naïve. On the plus side, it was still a time where I was as hopeful as I ever am…hoping that someone perhaps had a caring soul when really they were the exact opposite. Everyone has their battles; whether you’re challenging yourself by teaching English in Poland, persevering in Med School or fighting with your always taught heartstrings and loneliness in Oromocto, New Brunswick, you learn so much about yourself. And always materialize as a better person...the better person. Best of all is when you realize and accept that somewhere out there is someone (at least one person) thinking about you at any given moment…about how amazing you are and how much they love you. Knowing this is what is keeping me content with everything 24/7.
I’ve made some huge life changes recently in hopes of finally finding happiness. Thank you to 3 people; 2 of whom have been there the entire way supporting me as best as anyone could ask for and know I love them very deeply. And 1 of whom I adore to no end…one I am currently head over heels for and falling for more deeply day by day. The old Scotty is back while the heartbroken, manipulated, confused, depressed and distraught Scotty is tossed away for good. You’re only as terrible as you’re manipulated into believing you are.
…I hope this letter finds you well.