A sickness that cannot be cured
Yeah, so this really isn't how I invisioned my first year of high school It feels like everything has just gone to pieces. My old band is gone, a lot of my really good friends are in others school, lost a person that I loved, and I'm feel like total shit. Is this the way that my life is going to go for the rest of my life? I really hope it isn't. I hate being mad at people even when they didn't do anything wrong. I hate getting hurt by people when I hurt them and they don't know I regret what I did. Why can't I move away? Somewhere far away. I want to move back to Maine. That way i don't know anyone so I can't hurt them. I want to just keep to myself so I don't mess anything up, but it seems like my mind won't let me. I want to know why I have these feelings. I want to know why I feel like crying every night when I go to sleep.