Me < Everyone

[ihateemukids]

Sometimes, I feel like..everyone is better than me.
Prettier, Smarter and more exciting.
Maybe that's just because I am me.
I have low self esteem and I will always think these things about myself.
It is something I cannot help..A habit, I guess you could call it.
I don't get jealous..I don't get angry..but I do feel it.
No reason to show it because in the end..I'll just feel stupidity..
I'll be wrong..and you'll be right..That will be the end of it.
It's still lingering..right there..hiding away..
but I guess there's only so many times you can tell me..you love me..
and that you'll be here forever.
I don't know..
I'm just fucking feeling..wicked tonight..
Alone..and depressed..I have nothing to be depressed about though.
I cause these problems..I make these things up in my head..
I bring the negative..they should invent a pill..
that I could take..to not have bad self esteem..
to think I am great..to think I am the hottest fucking thing..
and none of these girls could come close to me..
but there is no such thing..meaning there is no help for me..

not like anyone reads this..or will understand..
it's an inside the head thing..
Thanks journal for listening..because no one else will.