i just want to go home
sadly enough, i find no more meaning in the work i'm doing here.
i came here filled with ambition and purpose, so sure that i was going to gain something out of this trip. yes i've learnt and i believe i've grown and matured. but some how something just doesn't feel right anymore.
i hate being in the office. Apart from the physical condition of this place, i am beginning to find the treatment here intolerable, unacceptable and absolutely uncalled for.
i enjoyed myself those 2 days in the village, despite the coach ride and having to pay for everything and even the food poisoning it gave me. Those 2 days were the reason why i signed up for this internship. To feel welcomed, to feel appreciated and to feel useful. although the survey results were pretty skewed and i didn't exactly interact directly with the villages, i feel i've learned. seeing the people, they seem so happy so satisfied and so contented living life with such simplicity. do they really need our help? my mind is just a whirl of contradictions now. its getting kinda depressing because i can't accomplish something i don't believe in.
i'm beginning to hate it here
i just want to go home.
and oh, that's one less career option for me too.
p.s. i miss you rebecca baybeh! i wish i could be there to send you off. i somehow got reminded of the boys like girls days, lets stay tonight on top of the world, we can do anything we can be anything!
i came here filled with ambition and purpose, so sure that i was going to gain something out of this trip. yes i've learnt and i believe i've grown and matured. but some how something just doesn't feel right anymore.
i hate being in the office. Apart from the physical condition of this place, i am beginning to find the treatment here intolerable, unacceptable and absolutely uncalled for.
i enjoyed myself those 2 days in the village, despite the coach ride and having to pay for everything and even the food poisoning it gave me. Those 2 days were the reason why i signed up for this internship. To feel welcomed, to feel appreciated and to feel useful. although the survey results were pretty skewed and i didn't exactly interact directly with the villages, i feel i've learned. seeing the people, they seem so happy so satisfied and so contented living life with such simplicity. do they really need our help? my mind is just a whirl of contradictions now. its getting kinda depressing because i can't accomplish something i don't believe in.
i'm beginning to hate it here
i just want to go home.
and oh, that's one less career option for me too.
p.s. i miss you rebecca baybeh! i wish i could be there to send you off. i somehow got reminded of the boys like girls days, lets stay tonight on top of the world, we can do anything we can be anything!